I do not get it every morning, only those in which I get up early which, nowadays, is every morning. My early may not be your early, we are engineered differently anyway. My definition of early is any time before 8 o’clock. That time when the sun looks like an orange ball and the cold is biting away every bit of my skin not covered. I know for some people, this is very late.

The feeling is so bad that at that moment the alarm goes off, a million negative thoughts flood my head. I feel like crying and dying at the same time. (Never mind that I should feel the complete opposite for waking up without any medical condition). It is so bad that I do not open my mouth for about an hour after I wake up. I would not dare to anyway, I sound like a broken record when I talk. (That should serve as a warning to anyone who has or plans to call me anytime between one and eight a.m.)

At that particular moment, I like to think of myself as undergoing a booting process just like a computer. The process has to occur just right or my day will turn out nasty.

There are those times I wake up in installments, literally. That is mostly in campus where life is a bit easy. The first installment is dedicated to heating up some water for my bath. While it heats up, I get back to sleep. After the 15 shortest minutes of the entire day, I wake up and check on my Twitter and Facebook accounts. This particular installment works wonders in waking me up fully.

The booting process is complete when I shower, pray and take breakfast. I am like a totally different person afterwards.

The good thing is, the feeling eventually disappears, so much so that I am never in a hurry to get back to bed when it is time. When my brain is completely awake, it figures out that I need to wake up and experience the day’s pleasures and struggles to be a better me. And of course meet new people!

Thus in the long run, the feeling I get in the morning will remain just that, a feeling.

Written by Shiku Ngigi
Mum and dad's daughter. Shouting big sister. Learning to listen. Jesus freak. Recovering tomboy. Mouse potato. Bass addict. Waking up the writer in her.


  1. JAMES June 6, 2011 at 11:51 am Reply

    They say that if you wake in the morning and you experience extreme joy, the highest possibility is that something nasty has happened.

  2. Shiqs June 30, 2011 at 6:06 pm Reply

    funny i dint see this. I hv neglected ths place bt am back! I see am nt alone in ths.

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