Thoughts and Stuff

Today was awesome, mostly because it was a Sunday. It happens to be the day I get to listen to some serious nuggets of wisdom from speakers. It was an exception mainly because the speaker was speaking directly to me.

I know what you are thinking, Yeah right Carol! I have heard that before. Everyone thinks that the preacher is talking to them once in a while.

Well you have not. The thing is, he talked about my blog; this very blog (Ok, well, not exactly but you know what I mean). He talked of how I should contend for the faith in writing. How I should start as many blogs as I can to stand for what I believe. You know what’s funny,

…the fact that I started this blog in October last year hoping to write often but ended up neglecting it.

…the fact that my first post mentioned Jude 3, the very verse the speaker insisted on today.

You know what else is interesting, the fact that the sermon title was kind of new to me.

I have this thing I do when some topic I do not know is mentioned. I will completely switch off and brand the sermon boring (like someone might do when they discover I am preaching right here. I totally understand). Then I remembered something my pastor said in church a year ago:

Listening to a sermon is like eating food, you do not remember every dish you have had since you were born BUT that is the only reason you are alive, because you eat. In the same way, you need to listen to the word of God over and over to grow spiritually, whether you remember every bit or not.

So I sat up and listened. Christian apologetics, what in the world? I had no idea what that was before 11.30 am today. I had seen papers on the net and had a feeling an apologetic was some sort of fact presentation to prove something. Today, I learnt that I should defend the gospel through this blog and my life.

I decided today will not be like any other Sunday where I sit at my usual spot in that massive lecture hall, listen to an inspiring sermon, go on and on about how awesome it was then on Monday I am back to square one, not acting out the inspiration.

I will be like Josh Wilson who sang the song “I refuse”. The words in that song say exactly what I have decided to do today and as long as I live.

Sometimes I
I just want to close my eyes
And act like everyone’s alright
When I know they’re not

 This world needs God
But it’s easier to stand and watch
I could say a prayer and just move on
Like nothing’s wrong

But I refuse
‘Cause I don’t want to live like I don’t care
I don’t want to say another empty prayer
Oh, I refuse

To sit around and wait for someone else
To do what God has called me to do myself
Oh, I could choose
Not to move but I refuse

What more can I say? I will contend for the faith and hope that in the process, you will also do the same; in love (the fact that I have used the word ‘today’ so much notwithstanding).