My friends, who are they when all is said and done? Maybe the only reason I have them is because I get something from them. And if that is the reason, then it means that when they run out of whatever they give me, they stop being friends.

Is that what a friend should be? Should I make someone feel indebted just because they have the tag ‘friend’?  Let us not forget the word has taken a whole new meaning in cyberspace where you can have thousands of ‘friends’ who you can instantly unfriend at the click of a button (that word does not even sound right, unfriend, really?)

And what do I really mean when I tell a guy that we should just be friends. Were we enemies in the first place? Is a boyfriend not a friend?

I live by the mantra, ‘Show me your friends and I will show you who you are’. Most of the time, my friend will be someone I share some interest with. But now that I think about it, maybe that is a bit selfish. Maybe friendship should also be about being there for someone who needs you not because you know they will help you later.

Today’s fuel was the story of the young girl from my former high school who committed suicide because she felt she did not have many friends. What exactly did she mean by that? Had she ran out of friends to talk to about her troubles? Or maybe she felt out of place for one reason or other.

I may keep speculating on why exactly she did what she did but I will not help much. What I should be thinking about now is whether my friends would go to such lengths while I was too busy thinking thoughts like, ‘I know why he is not replying to my text, he thinks my world revolves around him.’ or ‘Girl’s got drama that is why she suddenly stopped talking to me.’

It happens. Sometimes I want to show someone that I do not appreciate how they treated me by treating them the same way. Or I will shamefully give someone a gift because somehow I expect them to give me one in return (I realize how uncouth that sounds, like some barter trade or something). Maybe you have done it too. Thing is, even Jesus who I strive to be like everyday advocated for charity where only spiritual return is assured.

In fact, the more you give expecting to be given back, the more your heart will be broken. Your motive was wrong and the person you gave did not think you expected something in return. It is true that in African tradition, you give to be given. Look at our mothers carrying kiondos when they go visiting families just to give back in a small way.

So I am not saying that giving expecting something in return is wrong, it is human nature. All I am saying is do not let your friendship be all about expecting them to do exactly what you do for them. Oh yes, I have an ego and a big one at that. So following through on this one could prove easier said than done.

But I will do my best to know who my friends are and be there for them, regardless of whether they do the same for me. In the end friends are friends forever if they were not solely friends with benefits.

Friends fall out. Friends make up. Friends make the world so much brighter.

Thank you for being my friend.

Matthew 5:46 If you love those who love you, what reward will you get? Are not even the tax collectors doing that?

Written by Shiku Ngigi
Mum and dad's daughter. Shouting big sister. More than a Facebook friend. Jesus Freak. Wannabe Tomboy. Mouse Potato. Earphone Junkie. Texts over calls. Writes the way she talks.

    4 Comments

  1. YoungNyash January 8, 2012 at 12:29 am Reply

    Great keep it up

  2. benna January 8, 2012 at 8:15 am Reply

    Nice!!!

  3. Caroline Wanjiku January 8, 2012 at 10:28 am Reply

    🙂

  4. James irungu m September 15, 2012 at 1:21 pm Reply

    nice

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