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I have fought the good fight... - Thoughts and Stuff

I have fought the good fight…


I am seated in my room, in the dark listening to Group 1 Crew’s “Going Down” on repeat. The night’s young, 12.28 am is as young as it gets. The day was average. It was cold and wet. I am getting used it now. I have not written in a while which means I am out of my element. Or maybe I am just busy. Busy with a project that seems to never end. I have a month, give or take, to be done with it. The joy of it all is that I am certain that it will be over by then.

I may not have a clue on how I will make a simple thesaurus turn into the complex one that my supervisor wants but I am more than sure I will figure out a way. Half the code I have written right now, I could not have a few weeks ago. Let’s just say I am operating on pure faith; faith that I can do all things through Christ who strengthens me.

Once in a while, you might see me tweet my disappointments. When it gets too much, I claim I want to quit school. Yeah right. How in the world would I quit school when I have two months to go? I have always loved school but sometimes it makes me sick. I remember back then when I had to go back to high school after a holiday, I would literally change in demeanour. I could even come down with a headache. Murphy ’s Law would knock on my door. I’d suddenly remember all the holiday homework I’d not completed, fret over the CAT that would molest me the next week and a bunch of silly little things that would not bother an average student.

Looking back I have been through tougher situations. Back then, I didn’t have Google to ask everything (and somehow I think I was sharper than I am now). I did not even have the freedom to do what I wanted to do, when I wanted to do it. What am I saying?

Days will come when I am feeling terribly low (you too). I will feel like I cannot make it. I could even consider letting someone else code my thesaurus for me (a lot of students do that anyway). I could just stall and say I don’t even need to know how to code irrelevant stuff for me to make it in the industry. I could tell myself so many things but the project will not be completed by anyone else but Shiku.

That is why I say the night is young. I have the breath and the health to sit here and get some data structures into my head. I have all the time to bond with eclipse, together we can code a version 1.0 of Shiku’s Thesaurus. What else could I possibly want to do with my time in campus? I walked in here with my dad, mum, brother and cousin on 3rd August 2009 and they sure didn’t bring me here to quit in the middle.

And like Paul I will finally say “I have fought the good fight, I have finished the race, I have kept the faith.” (2 Timothy 4:7) I admit that Paul was going through way more challenging issues than I am right now, but if I cannot be faithful in the little that I encounter, how then will I be faithful in more?

This way, I will be in line for greater responsibilities out there. Yes, I said it, out there. I am fearless. (Oh yeah, I decided that “Fearless” on the same Group 1 Crew album should be on repeat now. How apt?) And as always, I will end with my Jesus’ timeless words in KJV “For unto whomsoever much is given, of him shall be much required: and to whom men have committed much, of him they will ask the more.”

(And just like that, I am in my element.:-D)

2 thoughts on “I have fought the good fight…

  1. In deed ive read this and it has made me come back to my senses. nothing comes easy and if it does then it will vanish easily and here I begin my chapter two of the project.it will be done by no one but ALLAN.

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